Wednesday, November 30, 2011

absence

I have been away fro quite a while. My needle has grown cold and the piles of cloth dusty. I have not had the urge to write, create, or even sometimes think. This adjusting to a new life has been hard. I do not want to complain or pity myself. But merely speak the truth. It is difficult with an almost three year old and even more difficult with my three year old that has too much energy. He is a lot to handle and I have felt my time, my strength, my sanity dwindle. There have been days where I have broken down and have felt like an empty shell unaware of who I am or what I like. I am slowly trying to find my way back. But it is difficult.

7 comments:

  1. you are still thought of and i have been wondering how you are doing. hoping things settle down for you. there are lots of us here if you need to vent.

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  2. thank you deanna. I cannot seem to truly express what and how I feel. It must be a hormonal thing. But I just cannot seem to shake this feeling of inadequacy and lack of energy.

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  3. oh it happens, been there and back, you will be fine, drink it in and wait.

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  4. Please know that you are not alone. If it's any comfort, I was in that state for years and am slowly crawling out. It's so hard to be patient with ourselves. The days can seem interminable, but they do pass. You and your son will continue to grow and change even though you can't see it while you're struggling through it. I used to find every way possible to get my kids exercise so that they'd tire themselves out. I also used to leave my fabric out so that I could just look at it and dream of what I would someday be able to get back to. Dream to keep your sanity.

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  5. Oh yes, I remember those days. You are not alone in this phase...but it too shall pass. Hang in and take care of you too.

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  6. I'm so glad you are hear - I loved reading about the birth. Hang on in there - it's hard I know, but stitch just 10 stitches a day and all will be well xxxx

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  7. Hmm I like that prescription...I shall try it.

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